I've achieved ****-all today. Well done me.

I'm thinking about how my T told me last session that he's moving to a new place in June. I'm wondering if he was partly interested in checking whether I'm sticking with him... I mean, I know he was likely telling all his clients that week about the move... but I did say to him the week before that I'd considered leaving him after our twenty hours (required by my university) are up. Maybe he was wondering about it. He didn't respond at all when I said it... I have managed to interpret that in every possible way at this point, of course. That's the problem with a lack of response I guess. What did I want him to say, anyway?! "Don't leave, Luc - I love you!"

Just for fun I did a bit of T window-shopping last night. Wondering what it would be like to find someone else. Then of course he was there in the search results and it freaked me out even though obviously he would show up there - that's how I found him in the first place!

Eurgh I dunno what I'm on about really. Sorry.

ETA: Obviously I'm not going to leave him - ridiculous!