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Originally Posted by zoiecat
I am new to the discovery of possible others within me. I've been in therapy for a couple months now starting EMDR and have started hearing a few voices. Does I guess always been I mean voice but recently it helped her voices come out a few times and then there's the little girl voice which kind of seems more like a presence rather than a voice. I told my therapist and he was very open to the concept he said it makes perfect sense and told me it was dissociative identity disorder. I told him I didn't have that and he said okay well there's a broad spectrum. I'm just very confused and not totally convinced so I'm just wondering how did you discover you had others and how did you start relating to them.
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Hey Zoie,
It's a super hard journey to learn about yourself, especially when it comes to dealing with dissociative disorders. EMDR was definitely a big trigger for me in my teens that led me to some awareness and that was roughly when I occasionally heard voices or felt a presence from inside.
At one point in my teen years, I dated someone with DID. Through them, I recognized a few signs of DID and eventually it was pointed out to me. I was going through a lot then and was in and out of therapy and social workers nonstop and after the EMDR I definitely knew something was up, but then I choose to ignore it and tried to be normal for years.
I just kept telling myself that DID is silly and not real and did everything I could to distance myself from the others and whenever I had blackouts I would just pretend like they didn't happen.
I kept that up for years until everything fell apart. From there I started being honest because I hit rock bottom and got directed to specialists who help figure out the diagnoses of DID. It's been more than a year since that process started, and not unlike you, I often don't feel convinced of it and it doesn't feel real to me as much as I'm trying to learn to accept it.
Just take in new information slowly and take it one day at a time with an open mind. Good luck!