I feel like my pdoc is going to give up on me.

Every time he gives me good guidance, I just go off and do my own thing. IDK. I'm just stupid.

Sure, you can say, "well, we all mess with our meds at some point", but I seem to do this every 1-2 months, if not more often. I always stop taking stuff, change doses, take meds I shouldn't be taking (i.e., the Adderall I was once prescribed).

I'm afraid he's just going to give up on me my next appointment. I don't know. I just can't be trusted, and I can't really blame him if he wants to terminate with me.

My mood is so unstable because I'm so stupid with meds. I feel like I'm a lost cause... and I don't know... I'll probably give up on life if he gives up on me.