How can it be your fault?

You consented to going out with him, to drinking, to going back home with him; you never consented to having sex with him. You said stop. And it's never going to be that you were "leading him on" to believe that you were going to have sex with him. No matter how you acted before, you said stop. It's really important to remeber that.

Have you told anyone? It may be terrifying and scary, and theres so many excuses not to. Maybe they won't believe you. Maybe they'll blame you. I want to try and tell you it's not like that. A friend of mine was raped by her boyfriend, and she never reported it. She did tell her friends, though. And all we could think of was being there for her. I hope you have someone you can trust. I also would like to strongly suggest you seek professional help.

I understand thats it's going to be really hard not to blame yourself. I just hope that you think about what people have said, because some wounds don't heal with just time. Please take care of yourself. You are not alone.

~itadakimasu