Hello Everyone,
I don’t know if I needed to post here or in the emotions forum. I’ve been having things going on. Lately, I’ve been seesawing between being angry and sad. Today, I don’t know what I am. Thoughts and other things are swirling in my head. I just feel weird inside. Yesterday, I had a case of the hives for which my pdoc prescribed Vistaril. I’m beginning to think I get them when I’m manic. I took the Vistaril and cried for most of the day. I don't think they're related. I haven’t slowed down like I do when I’m depressed. It’s like everything is going at once, like cats running about with flaming paper bags tied to their tails. Please forgive me if this post sounds jumbled. I feel like my insides are squirming, and I see things. Darkness drips from things like slime. I take my meds like I was supposed to. Aren’t they supposed to help? Maybe I should stop taken them outright. Maybe I’ll feel better. I’ve been feeling like this for almost a month, and I’ve fractured relationships. I want my old self back, whoever that is.