Hi everyone. This is my first post other than a brief introduction. I would be grateful for some input.

I am having a problem with therapy. I recently started therapy again after about 7 years without, and I desperately would like help. The problem is that I seem to have lost my words. Each session I prepare myself to really talk, and each time I leave without really talking about much of anything. I have had a couple of good moments where I did give important information, but mainly we just go over the same minor issues. I really want to talk about some things, but it is like my words are stuck deep inside and I can't get them out.

The therapist doesn't push me, but I think that if he did it might actually help a little. I sense that he might be afraid to push too much. I just simply don't know how to tell him certain things or answer his questions. It all seems so oversimplified sometimes. How do you tell someone about your worst childhood memory when the whole thing was a horrible mess? I am at a loss, and I think the therapist is at a loss.

I don't really know what to do. I don't have regular appointments with him. He just tells me to call when I want to come in. Each time I do see him, I feel like he is wondering why I am there. I am sure it does appear that I don't really want any help. Why would I be there if I didn't, though?