I knew this would happen.

For the past few weeks/months ive been fooling around with that devilish white powder. I'm coming down right now, and i try keep focusing on the fact that my way-of-looking at life is completely altered by this crap, but it is so difficult to just keepin on truckin on with work and school and such. Im longing for something. Im craving something. Im craving my drug, but in actuality, im craving something entirely different. I just dont know what that is yet. I just want to be as sky high as I was the first few times, but i know that can never happen. I have more, and its calling my name, but i dont know what Im going to do.

melissa