Hi Raven,

I very much relate to what you're saying. For me, it's past the point of hypomania. There is no organization of my home, no cleaning, no truly productive activity because my mind is moving too fast to keep up...or I have intersecting thoughts. By intersecting thoughts, I mean thinking of different things at the same time. If you picture the diagram of an atom...my thoughts are like that. Is that similar to how you feel?

Like you, I have no patience to complete tasks. I feel like people are speaking and thinking way too slowly and I feel very impatient. It takes a lot of effort not to interrupt.

I haven't been fully manic in awhile. It doesn't end up well. I rely on my Geodon to control my mania. My Klonopin is a bit helpful. I get bad insomnia. If I am over three days with zero sleep despite meds (and I don't drink/use substances)...I call my pdoc. If I can't sleep, it gets worse and I become psychotic.

In the past, my pdoc has brought me in ASAP for an emergency appointment and made med adjustments. I had to call him last month because I had four days of no sleep and I was manic...it is was cycling into a mixed episode. This time, he arranged for me to go IP (voluntarily) to a (non-crisis) psychiatric mood unit hospital. He told me he knew the pdoc there, liked her, and said I could get stabilized there fastest. They did stabilize me but I hated the med changes so my pdoc switched me back.

My episodes are triggered by extreme stress, usually. How about you?

How's your sleep? Are you feeling manic or mixed? Can you call your pdoc? Or do you think you are needing to head off a crisis situation? Do you have any PRN/emergency meds to take? Thinking of you. PM me anytime.