Dear Giucy,

I realize you trust me much more than I give you credit for. I thought you were defiant against my advice, when you actually want to make them work.

I thought you were angry against my incompetence, while you actually felt only utmost respect and trust towards me. What I perceived as anger and contempt was actually a matter of fact information without implied judgment against anyone. I had a lightbulb : you are not angry when I don't know, you are angry when authority refuse to acknowledge it and blame the issue on your being defective. It's very different from being angry at me because I don't know.
I thought that you felt how your GP was perfect and I was the bad guy, when you tried to explain to me that GP and I are talking from different perspectives, and her broader knowledge about ritalin than mine doesn't take away my experience and competence at psychiatry generally speaking. Of course, if she has been knowing you since childhood while I have been knowing you since adulthood, no wonder she could see stuff I can't : it is only basic common sense !!
I thought you wanted to win at all cost. You only want to get the facts straight before making a decision, whomever is actually right.
I realize now that I freaked out so much about my relationship with you, about your bad feelings about me. Actually, there was no basis to worry about your negative feelings about me, because you held no negative feelings against anyone in the first place.

I thought you were defying my competence as a doctor, when your actual reasoning was only related to your experience at dealing with rare issues. I thought you wanted more than a therapist-patient relationship, while you wanted me to understand about dealing with side effects in daily life. I now understand that probability and stats in only one element among others when you make a decision, while this criteria is #1 for me.

You reason differently than most of my patients, and you are hypersensitive. Therefore, I can understand that you have very negative feelings when you are actually giving a very matter of fact piece of information.
I might think you refuse my advice, when the opposite is actually true.
I am actually happy you now take your time to highlight when you agree with me before scanning my advice's obstacles. Actually, you raise the obstacles to make it work, not to defy my authority.
Frankly, I wouldn't had thought about taking a piece of paper for putting the bee out of the window. I thought you refused my request to put the bee out of my sight, while you were complying with my request in a much safer and ecological manner than I'd had usually done.
Actually, you focus on details to implement my advice. You rush for getting things done, while I focus more on intent.
I worried you defied advice and authority, you actually want to get things done safely and efficiently.
Why didn't I think about it earlier ?

Actually, you are much more sane than I expected. You made a lot of progress you don't realize.