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Old Apr 16, 2017, 04:57 AM
kaleidoscopeheart kaleidoscopeheart is offline
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Originally Posted by justxholdon View Post
But isn't it worth it? If it's even vaguely possible to find a way to let it go, to move past it, to find a future with your husband and kids that isn't weighed down by all this?
That is exactly what I am focusing on. I have so many defense mechanisms and I struggle with my emotions and just feeling things in general. I often feel like I may be a cyborg or something. Bottom line is my family deserves better than what I am able to give at the moment so I keep going back in hopes that I can eventually break down some of these walls and be the wife/mother they deserve. <3

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Originally Posted by TheDragon View Post
Sounds nice in theory. Too bad it's not so easily done!
So. True.

I will be the first to admit that therapy has turned out to be a thousand times harder than I ever would have imagined. :/