i'm so tired of making myself tired. i don't want to obsess anymore, i don't want to check anymore, i don't want read and re read and write and rewrite anymore and i just don't want to worry anymore. i hate ocd and i just want to be happy. i'm so tired b/c i'm so afraid to go to sleep. i used to be happy a long time ago where did that go and how do i get it back i am now plauged with this forever. i just want to be happy!