I agree with Laurie. You're being too hard on yourself. If you use your meds as prescribed and they are addictive....you are "dependent" on them. If you abuse your meds, that's considered addiction.

Regardless, addiction (if that's the case) does not make you a bad person. It's an illness. There is treatment for addiction if you want it.

If your meds just aren't helping you anymore....for whatever reason, don't blame yourself. Talk to your doctor about it. Don't go cold turkey. It's dangerous. Take care. No judgment here. xo