I'm not sure where the best place to post this is but as it mostly concerns depression (whether I have it or not) I thought I'd plant it here.

I have undoubtedly had depression in the past and the last time was over a year ago (I ended up leaving a stressful job), I wanted therapy but none was available so went on SSRIs (for the first time) and they helped, I was on them 6 months tapered off last summer as I felt fine.

My mood improved but my energy levels were never the same, my sport performance went off and has never come back. I got a new job but it's low paid/low status/low satisfaction type job, I am a failure career wise that is a fact.

I'm not sure if I'm still depressed. I'm still a worrier that's for sure. I'm tired all the time and usually do my job come home and flake - for a while I pushed back with exercise but that seemed to make me worse (more tired).

My brain feels fuzzy and disorganised, no energy, not looking forward to things or taking pleasure in what I used to (sport). I have 4 days off work with the bank holidays and thought I would feel better with rest but I just feel flat.

I'm not tearful or sad, just flat. Maybe this is normal. Maybe I'm not depressed. I have a GP appointment (first in almost a year), I have some gynae things I need to discuss and I'm also thinking I need to discuss possible depression/my fatigue. Just hoping I can get it across properly.

Just needed to write this somewhere, people on here often comment on how 'well' I seem in my posts and maybe even wonder why I'm here - but I do struggle, not as badly as many, but have always put as bright a face on it as I can. Not sure I'll ever be completely 'well' or if it's realistic to think I can be.