Jully,

I was where you are a few months ago. I still have problems talking but things are getting better. I did two things that seemed to force me to move beyond my inhibitions. First I was so frustrated looking at the floor for 4 straight sessions that I wrote a letter to my T at 3AM and then left the house and put it in the mail before I could have second thoughts. I know if I had waited till morning to mail it, it would have never been sent. I suffered major regret for the next week and half but sucked it up and went to my next appointment. It served as a starting point and it think it gave my T A WHOLE LOT of information go on. I gave myself another push when I was avoiding talking about some childhood stuff that came out in a previous session. I set my cell phone alarm to go off 15 minutes into the session and display the message--Stop wasting time and TALK TO HER! This provided a moment of comic relief and allow me to tell her I was still struggling.

I'll be watching this thread for some new ideas because at this point I don't think I'll ever reach the point where I feel comfortable talking about this stuff.