I will finally accept that I will never have the emotional connection with my parents which some other people have. It's too late now, it should have had hapenned decades ago.
But then why pretend? It is exhausting. Pretending we get each other. Then feeling empty, guilty, what have I done wrong.
I'm emotionally starved and suffocated by having my boundaries crossed costantly.
I just want to be myself and feel safe.......
I'm tired