I think, since you held it in check, that you are safe with yourself :-) I think you can trust yourself to deal with what is in front of you and "hold" the "reaction" (versus "response") until it is safe to look at and work with?

My car got totalled one night immediately after my therapy session, very traumatic, and, talking about it in therapy weeks after my T pointed out that people are "built" to deal with emergencies when they happen and then "fall apart" when it's safe to do so. I think that is all you've done, Cyran0, and that you're "human" and dealing with things like anyone stressed as you were?