art T,

I keep wanting to send you a text to find out whether you're angry with me after last week. I desperately want some feedback and more importantly some reassurance from you, but there's no way I will contact you in your time off.

Up to last week, I wouldn't have thought that I might regret the fact that there is no group taking place this week. In fact, I was 100% certain I might enjoy the break. How things change, eh?

Right now, I can't hold my balance on my own. I'm caught up in this vicious circle of self-criticism, feeling worthless, and finally the pits of despair.... Easter doesn't help really, to me this is the ultimate guilt-tripping holiday season. No surprise really that I'm caught up in feeling guilty...

Counting down till next group: 10 more days...

Lost and guilt-ridden, c_r