I haven't been stable, ever, I think..
But right now I'm in a bit of a conundrum...

I feel as if there is a battle of worlds happening, but I'm not really included...

Parts of me want this, desperately.
Other parts of me want something else, desperately..

I'm feeling really left out, distant, and just trying to manage the best I can...

I don't like drinking, I dont feel like drinking... But I'm trying to drink one hoping it calms my nerves...

I'm feeling so strange :/
The medication is helping but i just feel so foggy, like before... even when i was in rehab it was really bad...

mood swings... or switching... how do you tell the differenc
dunnos...