I just can't take it. I feel it, I think it and sometimes it isn't even true but it seems so real and I can trip on it in my head all day. I feel worthless like I'm no good and that person doesn't want to be with me. It's horrible. It devours me like a piranaha. Rejection is my number one enemy, my biggest fear, it forces me to run the other way, it stops me from fully loving but I am fighting it. I am loving someone for the first time ever, loving wildly, wholly, with some fear, but wide open and it's the best experience I've ever had. If I lose him I'll never lose these days I've had.