What would it be like????????? I don't think I will know in my lifetime!! There's entirely too much that went on since my childhood. I'm not saying I'm the lone ranger here, but I
thought things would get better after I grew up. Ok, older!!
Everything that happens to me I relate to some horrid event from my past. Why can't I move on? Who knows that? If you have the answer I'm willing to listen. And pls. don't tell me to give it to God. He gave it to me!!! Now what,
I'm going to give it back to him?
Alas, when you are a child from dysfunctional families, your view of the world comes from your parents. What you think, feel, tastes, hear....etc. comes from the people who brought you into THEIR world. If it's full of anger and disarray, well then that's what you grow up thinking works.
It's hard to get those pictures out of your head. It's like an on-going Kodak moment that never ends. And you find that it doesn't work in the real world as we come to know it.
I'm rambling on here. I apologize. Last night I got TRIGGERED by one of my favorite shows.........CRIMINAL MINDS, and I had to turn it off as it jumped too much from scene to scene. I came into my puter on youtube.com and watched videos. I had to cry as it just unnerved me. I can't say why either. I do not know. Is this making any sense to anyone?
Sorry. Maybe I'm tired. I've had that flu that everybody's getting and have been sick for a week now.