Thanks again for the replies. I'm glad to see that I'm not the only one having an issue with denial. I will remain open to the possibility and continue to learn more. I guess what makes it hard for me is that I was an only child and have never married so I've lived my entire life in my head. It's hard for me to recognize voices from my own thoughts. There are still some thing's the voices have said that would not be my thoughts but as of yet not enough to convince me. I have never been more confused in my life.