M.

That part of me that says, "I just can't do this anymore!" has been with me all this holiday. Holidays seem to usually turn out very badly and it's come from every direction I could think of. This sucks!!!

I know that "I am having an emotional flashback" but that DOES NOT make it feel any better. This sucks!!!

The flashback is preventing me from being a grown up and not realizing that something horrible is about to happen. This sucks!!!

I'm going to try and get a handle on this before tomorrow. My brain kind of knows the truth. My heart can't sort it out. My heart is small right now.

Thank you!!

See you tomorrow!