First thing she wants to tackle is my not giving a crap about anything. She says I'm so "shell shocked" that I just compartmentalize everything and feel none of it. I avoid everything at all costs and just accept and move on no matter what crap I'm dealt.

So she told me to close my eyes and "walk through my house". She everything like I'm wearing a body cam and tell her how/what I feel/think.

IT was very unsettling because I didn't realize I had so much trouble feeling but if it's not anger or depressed apparently I don't feel it.

She said there was going to be much more to all this but she wanted to start with baby steps because my damage is so deep.