One of my best friends died by suicide on February 12 of this year. There are lots of things that I am having a hard time dealing with at the moment. I was the only person he sent a suicide letter to and I found out lots of things about him that I didn't know. He was suffering through lots. He felt as though his family didn't care and made it seem like his family was horrible.

The hardest part for me is I know he was depressed and I thought he was getting help. On the Friday before he died he seemed really happy in his messages to me, I guess that should have been some sort of trigger.

When it comes down to it, I just really miss him. I still expect to get texts from him. I am sad I never got a chance to tell him how much he really meant to me.