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Recently, I have found that I am more self-isolating than I used to be. If it wasn't for the fact that I actually have to show up to work, i'd rarely see anyone but my daughter and my husband and they could care less so.
I've always had a hard time with social situations, doing something new, very hyper-vigalent, have to scope out buildings before I enter them. But even then the desire to get out and do things was there, even if I couldn't do it or had to leave early. Since my CPTSD symptoms surged last year, I just don't care anymore.
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"Do you know what’s really scary? You want to forget something. Totally wipe it off your mind. But you never can. It can’t go away, you see. And… and it follows you around like a ghost."
~ A Tale of Two Sisters (Janghwa, Hongryeon) (2003)
"I feel like an outsider, and I always will feel like one. I’ve always felt that I wasn’t a member of any particular group."
~ Anne Rice
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