Remember this was very long ago ... and I was young ... very hard core ... very filled with hate and anger ...

I was 100% sure I was to save the world (at that time thru Christian theology) ... I know 100% I would die by 33 ... (hint .. in NT. ) ... I preached and could light your hair on fire while burning your clothes with fire and brimestone sermons ... *** now the fun part *** ... prior to that ... I cruised the streets looking (hunting) for "evil doers" to kill ... yes Virginia he loved the gun ... I traveled with a 357 and a sawed off double 12 guage ... for you that do not know ... they not only kill .. they mutalate the body ...

thankfully my home church was so impressed with my preaching they sent me to a "bible collage" so I could lead a church they were starting ... now the part I leave out to not offend "christians here" ... but I quit organized religion completely ...

ok sounds like any other youth right ... none I knew ... 70's and early 80's ...

ps: while in bible school I saw a pdoc per the school's request ... yep .. BP ... back then no 1 or 2 or nos ...
on meds of course .... even with my attempt , I never considered myself really dx until my ip in 2012 ... so many fu**ed up years ... just now getting somewhat socialable ... (god bless my poor wife) ...

was that crazy enough ... IDK ... but it's true . Tigger.