i spent a long time debating whether what happened to me was rape. the first time he refused to leave my house and made me go outside. he didnt actually have sex with me but i tried to push him off several times. then i thought that because i wasnt battered and bruised that it wasnt raped. the second time was with my boyfriend (ex) and he did have sex. i said no a few times and he still did it. i didnt think that was rape either because he was my boyfriend. the first time was 6 years ago and the 2nd time was about 4 years ago. it took me that long to realize that even though i wasnt near death from it, i was still raped. i was violated. and it took me even longer to realize it wasnt my fault.

thats what he wants you to think. thats why they apologize and cry their little eyes out. hoping you will feel sorry for them and hoping you will take it upon yourself. dont do that. who cares how drunk anyone was, you said no, its not your fault.

none of us are going to make you believe that, you have to do it on your own. but when youre ready, were here.