Mrs M. So much of what you posted is familiar to me but most of all the pretending. It's hard to be a great actor when you're not feeling your role. The process is exhausting.

For me the toughest part is pretending for my kids.

But I'm confident that we'll all get through this season in hell. In the meantime, I'd recommend talking to your pdoc about your meds, seeing if you can up the frequency of your T visits (if you have one), and keeping your daily responsibilities as light as possible.

It's hard I know. I know that these are things I need to be doing too and most of the time, I don't. But you are worth it, I'm sure your husband is happy he married you, and try to give yourself some slack.

Be safe.

Cyran0