Didn't do too much today. It's my last day of vacation. Back to work tomorrow. Probably a good thing. Takes my mind off the depression. Had wanted to do a bunch of cleaning today but just couldn't get up the energy. Trying not to beat myself up over it. I feel like I'm teetering on the edge now where I could either get better or get much much worse. Probably worse if I can't start caring and doing things to help myself. It's so hard not having anyone around to point out when I start making terrible decisions.