At first reading your post I was a bit upset for you. you just spent a month getting detoxed, sober and diagnosed and on the right treatment plans and your first post in this thread sounded like you have chosen to throw all that away and try to drink a drink to calm your nerves. then your posts are starting to get messed up sounding again, like you have decided to say to heck with treatment and all that hard work....

this is what I ......was.....going to post to you....

the bottom line is only .....you ..... can control you, only you can keep yourself from going through all this crap thats starting back up for you. you can either go off every which way again and none of us here can help you other than read your posts... or you can call your treatment providers and let them know you need their help.

then I read your other post here in this thread stating you have not actually taken a drink yet and you are in contact with your treatment providers with an appointment set and you will be contacting your therapist...

whew ok now I can relax a bit and say to you.... congrats in recognizing you need to contact your treatment providers, and stay on track.

I am also glad that you are deciding to take a step back from psych central. I was wondering if after going through detox, stabilization, and getting sobor and going through diagnosis and finding out you dont have dissociative disorders that you have Borderline Personality Disorder then coming on the dissociative boards and finding things that may sound like you, would cause you to start questioning yourself again and cause you to throw your treatment plans to the wind again and end up in the same boat you were before going inpatient.

we well be here where you are ready to be here. like I said before dissociation problems comes with many different things. having alters does not mean a person has a dissociative disorder any more. what matters is you follow your treatment providers and keep yourself on track of all that hard work you just accomplished inpatient. (by the way I dont only read threads where a person is having problems, I love hearing about success too. so please dont feel you have to be worse or having problems, if posting and reading about dissociative problems is throwing you off, its ok to turn your focus to the positives in you and others too...)

you do what you need to do and pop in occasionally to give us an update as you can.