Hi kaos and welcome to PsychCentral! It is great that you have found a med that works for your depression!

I understand the compulsion to drink every night and how difficult it is to get sober. I was a daily drinker. It was hard to fight the addiction of alcohol and to overcome the habit of drinking every night. At first, I just did not know what to do with myself in the evenings. I had to restructure my evenings and plan out things to do so I did not sit around thinking about drinking.

Have you picked a quit date? I hope you don't mind me asking, but are you drinking heavy enough that physical withdrawal is going to be an issue? It is important to keep yourself safe and get medical attention if you need it.

Congrats on deciding to get your life back! I hope we can share our journeys as we work together in recovery. I look forward to learning more about you.