Last week my T said that she has started seeing a pattern with me emailing her and she wants to use it as a "tool". She is completetly okay with me emailing her and we are both on the same page about not actually having a conversation over email but that sometimes it's helpful for me to send them during the week.

So going forward, she actually wants me to email her more often, or just not hold back if I feel like emailing, but that I have to read them out loud in the next session. She said she'll still read it beforehand but for some reason, it makes me really uncomfortable to think about reading them to her.

It's much easier for me to open up via writing and it's frustrating that I have such a hard time reading something to my T out loud that I know she has already read. I know she is pushing me because she wants to help me get more comfortable expressing myself in person so I'll do it. I'm just anxious about it.

Has anyone else struggled with this or been in a similar situation?