TBunny, this may sound like an answer you have heard, but if you do not care about yourself, or care about your situation then many times others will not either. You say your animals dont care if you are poor!!! That is true, You say they dont offer you what you need! That is surprising to me! My animals have sometimes been the only love and support I have. I understand what you are feeling about being poor and wondering why you dont have motivation. Depression, or lonliness, and many other situations can make us feel this way. When I did not feel motivated, it took a while, but I realized I needed to put a big smile on my face and pick my butt up off the couch. I am not saying it was easy. But the smile on the outside helps the inside, beieve it or not. Pick at least one thing each day and DO IT!!!!!!! Good luck sweetheart!!!