I've been seeing my new counselor for almost 2 months; I think he's great. I'm in counselling for the death of my daughter. I've shared a lot with him and even talked a bit about my childhood but skipped right over some trauma that happened a few years ago. Last session we were talking about my depression that has been fairly constant since the trauma a few years ago. He asked me when my depression started so I said a few years ago, so he asked if there was something that triggered it so I said yes. He asked me if it was because of something that I had already talked about or mentioned to him so I said no. He then said he felt a bit manipulated by me because there's obviously something significant that happened in my life that is probably still affecting me and complicating my grief for my daughter. I told him that I was there to talk about my daughter and not the other stuff so I never brought it up. He said it's all related and things from my past are going to keep affecting my life until I deal with them. He said maybe if I'm ready I could share some of what happened at some point with him.
It wasn't my intention hide my trauma from him but I was just so focused on my daughter. I've been in trauma counselling before so I feel like it's kind of pointless to talk about my trauma again. So I don't know if I should try and talk about it again or if I should just tell him to leave it alone. I also don't know how long I get to see him for so I don't want to bring it up and then have my sessions run out.
The word manipulated keeps running around my head and makes me feel kind of bad.
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