I am so sorry for where you are right now. It is incredibly hard to get yourself up when you have been knock completely off your feet. I think it can be helpful to set a few goals to get moving again. HOWEVER, I would focus on what you want! The weight issue, if you are going to do it--do it for yourself, NO ONE ELSE.

In my healing process my overall health was one of the first things I started to work on. Mainly because my obesity problem was one of personal neglect and I knew I had some direct control over how I retreated my body. This is not the case with everyone so be careful. I started walking daily and then progressed to joining a gym with a friend and completing early morning workouts. This provided me with an excuse to take time out for just me which I desperately needed. The small but steady progress I've made in this area helps me feel better about myself. Now I am starting to tackle areas of my life that I am less skilled at dealing with.

My caution to you is that many people think that losing weight is a simple task --consume less than you expend! But those of us who are not genetic ectomorphs, know that there is a lot more to it than that.

I started with weight loss because I knew I had the necessary training and could definitely succeed at it. I would recommend that you choose for your your first goals something that:1) you really want for yourself and 2) you have a high likelihood of achieving.

What is something that you personally want and you are able to achieve? It has to be something that only requires effort or dedication only on your part. It doesn't matter what it is or if it will eventually lead to something else; just something that you want and can work on independently of others.

If you decide that it is weight loss and would like some starting tips and/or encouragement you can PM me.