....Got the referral to a new psyshiatrist. The big day is Dec. 11. I jnow I should feel happy and relieved but all I have is a strong sense of foreboding....don't know why. I just hope that when I get there I feel comfortable enough to get my point across about how bad it's been lately. I hope I'm able to let my guard down and drop the happy face that i put on for everyone else. This is all so hard!