Yes, it's "different" than one is use to, isn't it? Good for you getting an appointment. I'd concentrate on remembering that the psychiatrist has probably seen lots of people use to coping with the happy face; it's too hard making an appointment with him to not have a "reason" :-) They know that. I'm excited for you, hope you get a good start on things that work quickly to relieve you of some of the bad burden.