Moving and changing everything in your life sucks at first but surviving it does build resiliency. I've done it a few times and leaving t was always the hardest part. I can understand f it, but old t can serve as a bridge and support while you find a new t.

I just did this earlier this year. I needed old t's to help me evaluate new t's. They were very insightful and even talked to new t. It helped a lot.

I hope the transition brings better things for you.