I'm probably about 60 pounds overweight and most due to taking my bipolar meds. I don't think gastric surgery would be the right move for me. I plan on trying Nutrisystem perhaps as it worked once before many years ago. I am 48 years old and don't look my age, just by my weight. It really makes me feel less of a woman and so undesirable to my husband or anyone. A part of me doesn't blame him for not being attracted to me anymore, but it doesn't excuse him for not loving me. Age is creeping up on him too so as they say look in your own mirror before you point out some else's faults. Yes if I lose weight, I might not have high blood pressure anymore and my asthma might decrease in symptoms I hope. I plan on talking with my pdoc about getting off that med and finding another one that I haven't taken that might work better in the weight department.

The bottom line is I can't let my husband lack of love towards me get me down any further than it is. I am a very lovable person by nature and always kiss and hug my relatives and my son. He sees that side of me and reciprocates. He is loving back as well and when he sees me sad and depressed and when his father doesn't want to sit next to me on the couch at night, he comes and sits close to me and holds my hand and hugs me.