I do feel stupid. And I can't find any useful advice online.

Lots of people post “I'm stupid” on different forums, but they only seem to get three different kinds of response:

1. I can understand what you read, so you can't be stupid.
2. There are different kinds of intelligence, so stop worrying.
3. Stupid people don't question their intelligence, but you do, so stop worrying.

None of those responses are helpful or insightful. In fact, the last time I googled “I'm an idiot” I was sent to a blog aimed at gifted people!

Okay, so maybe I am clever/average in some ways (no idea in what ways), but not in the right ways, the ways which could help me be independent and happy in life. I'm stupid in all the wrong ways, ways which aren't useful to society.

1. I had to work really hard to scrape average grades at school. I felt overworked.
2. I am a slow learner and barely retain anything. I forgotten almost everything I learnt at school.
3. I am not a logical thinker and a terrible problem solver. I can only do Easy Sudoku, given enough time, but not Medium
4. I make mistakes all the time, easily confused
5. I'm not creative or practical. I can't come up with new ideas and am clumsy
6. I'm always behind my peers and always have been. I'm not inmmature in the sense that I drink and throw tanturms, but I'm not interested in romantic relationships and still depend on my parents a lot. I still like things for children, I prefer children's books, kid's colouring books, puzzles
7. People treat me differently from others.
8. I volunteer at a school and struggle to keep up with the 8 year olds.

So, why are these things a problem?

Because I'm scared! I might never find a good job. I'm stuck in a horrible part time job and might be stuck there for the rest of my life. Grrr! It's hard to explain, but there's a childishness in me, a barrier in my mind. I first began to sense this barrier when I was in Year 5, but I began to feel that there was something a little off about me, parts of my brain blocked off.

I hope some of you understand what I am trying to say. Society needs us to be clever in specific ways and I'm not. I know that I'm average intelligent, but stupid in ways which makes life difficult and there seems to be no advice online.

Thanks and sorry for rant, but this really gets me down