I appriciate the kind words. All my life I strove to be the best I could. Now, here I am facing the downside, 50+ and ending up needing drugs..........a chemical imbalance??? when did this happen? I don't know. My wife is afraid that I might go off the deep end and kill her. She reads about people that have taken Zoloft, like Sid Hartman's wife.
She dosen't want me to take it. I have stopped before for her but, I end up after 6 weeks, being a worrier and nervous all the time. She dosen't understand. We are a tight couple. She thinks she drove me nuts, (well, she did, lol ) But, that isn't true. I just worry over nothing.

I tried natural things and they don't work. We are big into organic foods and thought that natural herbs would work, they did for a few weeks then I just couldn't do it anymore so I went back on. Physically, I am strong, I power walk, Bike, hike and chop wood ,plus exersize. What is wrong with me mentally? How did this happen? When do I get to feel normal again?

I have 6 grandkids, they mean the world to me. It is unfair that they have a Pop-Pop that is wacked out. I know, maybe I'm just feeling sorry for myself but, I have a high position job and what will happen if they find out? I think it is genetic. My Mother has it, my 2 brothers and one sister also. I come from a long line of psyco's.

Ah, you don't wanna hear anymore.......