I think since you have been home with your parents you are recognizing how they not only lack respect but probably also use emotional manipulation tactics.

There are cultures that demand the offspring respect/honor parents no matter what age. This is probably a custom your parents were taught and believe that is simply the way things have to be.

It sounds like you are starting to recognize how their behavior may have contributed to your challenge when it comes to socializing and some of your self esteem challenges. You are not the only one that this has affected. A lot of people can trace their self esteem challenges to their parents and how their parents treated them while they were growing up. Unfortunately, some of these parenting methods are handed down and just considered how to raise children.

Parents/family can put their children into a role and the children begin to REALLY see that after they have distanced for a while and then get back with family only to discover they are expected to adhere to that old role they were assigned.