The thing is that I've had this mental illness all my life. Aside from my kids, I've been a loser, broke, bad relationships, etc. I didn't ask fo my illness. I've been bursened with it my whole life, therefore my life has been one mess to another with instability, etc.
I'm not a "normal" healthy person that just blows her money away. I work hard, but don't make much. My life has been (aside from my kids) a total mess. I have nothing. I live with my ex bc I can't afford to be on my own.
Considering my life has sucked, I have nothing, and feel like I've been robbed of a good life by my MI.
She knows this. Believe me, she has a lot of money. I see family members give money to relatives that are drug addicts, lazy, alcoholics, etc.
All that I've dealt with in life has been tainted and controlled by my MI. My life has been a total waste. I have nothing but I so the best I can. I'm not some lazy slob.
I'm not asking for money for clothes, or a vacation. It's my teeth. If I lose this front tooth, I don't know what I'll do. Being embarrassed is an understatement. I worry about this all the time. It's just a matter of time.
Why wouldn't she want to help me? She doesn't have any MI at all. Therefore, for her, she has made smart decisions. Went to college, married well, and makes more money than they know what to do with. She spends more on a purse than what my teeth would cost.
I don't even care about the back teeth, just the front teeth. It just hurts me so badly that she won't help.
Sorry for the venting. It just really hurts. She knows how sick I am, and how I struggle daily. I would and I so help people whenever I can. I'm fully aware it isn't her job, or she isn't obligated. But, she's my sister, she knows what I've gone through in life. She has means, but just chooses not to help. It really, really hurts
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Bipolar II (mostly depressive episodes  )
OCD
300mg Wellbutrin
10mg Lexapro
300mg Lamictal
Xanax 1mg PRN
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