im sorry. american culture is...ruthless. cut throat. hyper-individualistic. materialistic. yes, there are some pros to being in america, but i think 21st century american culture really rips alot of us to shreds, and nobody seems to care.

you are more than your mistakes, your labels, your stuff or lack of stuff. you are more than a low wage job or bills or health problems.

i was poor for a while. its a long story. i had a softer poverty than most people (again, long story), but it was always damned if you do, damned if you don't. 'know your place,' that kinda thing. even now, with my somewhat affluent parents taking care of me and all that good stuff, im called 'uppity,' because i was poor for a season.

anyway...i dont know you or your life, and im not going to act as if i do, but i am sorry about your situation. life is rough even on 'normal' people in these united states. factor in severe mental problems, and...things can get really ugly, really fast.

i hope things get better. keep in mind, this is an internet forum, and people will sometimes (often?) write/say things they might keep to themselves if you were actually talking to them/us.