I get scared because everywere i hear when younger it was about murders murdering women or raping them.one bad the guy stuck his hand through the window and opened the back door.some of its real some of its not but from childhood its put me on high alert growing up and i dont trust anybody.but being completely alone at night would be a big factor as to why i dont know when im ready to move out.my friends are gone and id rather not go to a borad and care or group home id rather just get a big dog and live in an apartment if i moved out also with security.i dont even trust those safe rooms they can install in your home. Cause i watched monk and someone got in and killed the person.yes i watched a lot of tv growing up but today since netflix not as much also im a bit paranoid.i put a knife in my sisters bag at sixteen she was in kindergarten. I thought i was protecting my family in case anyone came through the patio my mom insisted on leaving open.i put it in there for a moment fell asleep forgot about.and my kindergarten little sister got in a little trouble at school.good thing she was smart enough to tell the teacher but i did feel bad