Omg yes. Exactly the same thing. I started emailing T because I was having such a hard time opening up (still do after 2 years lol). So my T would be like thanks for sending the email, I read it, but next session I want you to read it out loud. I swear to you, I stopped sending emails after this lol. I told T it made me feel really scared and she got it and after like 3 times of reading them out loud, she stopped telling me to do that and just read them before hand and we talked about it in the following session. Tell your T it makes you really anxious, thats how I got my T to stop.