I haven't drank in a while but when I did drink alone it was to try to numb unpleasant feelings. It doesn't work for long and instead increases the tendency to be depressed. Having taken benzos myself--the feeling I get from them reminds me a little bit of the intoxicating effects of alcohol and because of this, they can make you think of alcohol more.

I am sorry you are struggling. You mentioned boredom. I think it is easier to "quit" things when you develop other activities/habits to "fill the gap". It is hard at first to quit things but once you have quit for a while, it gets easier with time. Keep searching for motivation. Movies, sex, holidays, etc--they are all just as enjoyable sober as they were intoxicated. In certain situations, you give up a lot of power when you are drunk. Please don't give up on your quest to quit.....