Hi T,

I want to be able to email you. You wouldn't have to answer. You could read the email right at the beginning of our session before you get me.

I need to tell you how bad I'm feeling. I desperatly need help but don't know how to ask for it. I'm either too dissociated or too scared during session. I think you were able to see how I was feeling (at least I hope so, you'd be a miserable T otherwise), but were waiting for me to bring it up.

I have one of my ex-Ts in my head. She keeps repeating her stupid: "Girl, you have to talk. I can't help you if you don't talk" over and over in my head. What if there's nothing to talk about?