WoW, where to begin?

For a very long time now I have found I am very very jealous of those in relationships. Espcially those in sexual relationships. Being 17 I hear its natural to be sexually confused, with me my physical appearance says that, but inside I'm a old man!

Does anyone here other then myself get extremely depressed and more so jealous when around someone whom is very attractive knowing they have a sexual relationship withsomeone else?

This issue is becoming serious...I've been told I don't look bad, yet cannot find a date....mostly because of this issue. You see for me sex is special, I dont want it with just anyone...yet at the same time....I want love...whether its for a day or a eternity and if anything can convince that...its sex.

How do I stop and hold on and just wait for it to come with the right person? I'm 17....yet old...young...yet wise...I'm so conufsed.......

so...jealous.......very jealous....