youome,

One can only imagine what a person is capable of doing in light of dire consequences and lack of possibilities. I've always been a pretty strong individual, but I lost myself and all the qualities I once even admired in myself when I had good self esteem. There's only a slight reflection of the person I once used to be that is trapped in that mirror with no way out. If only I felt that I could break that mirror without the so called jinxing myself even more. I would slam it to the ground so hard and jump out yelling for people to hear me so that I might see that I am alive.